Underserving.....but so grateful!!!!!

Hey LOVIES!!!!

Wow......where do I even began to start. 2014 has been a year of ups and downs....and I put a strong emphasis on the ups and downs. I've experienced losing really close family members due to deaths, I've lost some friends, battled health issues, my family members have battled health issues, lost my job, regained my job, battled depression, my weight has fluctuated, I've questioned God and shed a many of tears. More this year than any previous years. I've failed God on so many different occasions. I've lost hope and come extremely close to throwing in the towel.  I've threw several pity parties and blamed my short comings and failures on God. I haven't always stuck it out this year and gone through how I know I am supposed too. I've murmured and complained.....but God yet and still saw fit to bring me right on through. 

The odds have most certainly been stacked against me and the devil has been mighty busy. Throughout all of my obstacles that have entered into my life in 2014, my God has always been my comforter. He has been by my side leading and guiding me the entire way. I have talked to God more this year than I ever have. My relationship with him has grown and my troubles and tribulations had everything to do with that. When times got hard I had no other option but to call on him and allow him to be comforter. For years I searched for mans affection, whether it be from friends or family members. This year I learned that God was my only solution. When times were good and when times were bad. I called on my God! I praised God in the midst of my struggles. I thank God for my troubles this year. They have helped to make me into a much stronger person. My faith in God has increased and my relationship with him has never been better! 

Although, this year has brought about many hard aches this year has blessed me tremendously. In the spirit aspect; as well as, the natural aspect. I have received 2 promotions, a raise, college tuition paid in full for up to 8 years, I've met my daddies side of the family, I've become active in ministry, I've traveled, I've crossed things off my "bucket list" I've grew extremely close to my family, and most importantly I've grown up!! I am blessed!! No other way to put it. God has been more than good to me in 2014. 

Even when your back is against the wall, keep pushing. Dive into God like you've never done before and watch him dive into you. Give up yourself and see how God will make you more like him. I am no where near perfect. I mess up daily, but I know that there is a higher calling. I know that I need God now more than ever. If God never does another thing for me...I can still lift my hands and thank him for all that he has done for me this far!! 

Nothing is as bad as it seems. There is always someone who has it worse. So be grateful for the blessings that you've been blessed with. Be thankful for your trials and tribulations. Praise him in the midst of your ups and downs. I owe God my everything!! I'm undeserving but I'm grateful!!! Be encouraged and know that trouble doesn't last always. Things are turning around for your good because God will perfect that concerning his people. 

I love you all dearly! Have a wonderful Thursday!!!!

Moeneak