Happy Sunday Lovies,
As requested today's blog will be about NATURAL HAIR. Lol. I read the comments and messages so I shall give you what you asked for. With that said, I am NOT a natural hair guru. I do NOT have all of the answers to your questions nor will I pretend that I do. I am simply going to provide you with information that I have found helpful along my 5 years of being natural.
First thing first, I did not transition. I did the big chop. Mostly because I am impatient and I just feel like there is something extremely liberating about chopping all of your hair off. Lol. Then again, most of you know this about me. In all honestly, there is no wrong or right way to go about this. It really is just your own personal preference. So do what works for you. If you plan on transitioning you might want to seek advice from someone else because I know absolutely nothing about the process, considering the fact that I didn't use this method. For me, I encourage everyone to BC. It just makes the whole experience more fun.
Secondly, my most important rule of thumb is to find out your hair porosity. Hair porosity simply means the hair's ability to observe and hold moisture. Low porosity hair tends to have a tightly bound cuticle layer with overlapping scales that lay flat. This type of hair is usually considered the most healthy and it is very shiny. Low porosity hair repels moisture when you try to wet it and it is hard to process since it resists penetration of chemicals. Low porosity hair is prone to build up from rich deep conditioners. If you have low porosity hair you should stick to protein free, daily conditioners with products such as glycerin or honey in them. Low porosity hair requires moisturizers that have shea butter, jojoba oil, coconut oil and mineral oil. Choose lighter, liquid-based products such as hair milks because these won't sit on your hair and leave it oily and greasy.
Medium porosity hair requires the least amount of maintenance. The hair cuticle is looser, so it allows just the right amount of moisture to enter while preventing too much from escaping. Hair with medium porosity tends to hold styles longer. Deep condition occasionally with proteins, but do not include them in your daily regimen.
Lastly, high porosity hair has gasps and holes in the cuticles, which let too much moisture into your hair and leave it prone to frizz and tangling. Use anti-humectants (must not possess molecular traits that cause it to attract water molecules to itself and it is water repellent, which means insoluble to water) this will seal your damaged cuticles and prevent them from absorbing excess moisture in the air. High porosity hair tends to lose moisture quickly, so it's important to use a leave in conditioner, a moisturizer, and a sealer. By layering these products you are helping your hair hold on to the moisture you're giving it.
There are two methods that can be used in order to determine your hair's porosity and that is by doing the float test (which is the method I prefer) and the slip'n'slide test. With the float test you will need to take a couple strands of hair from your comb or brush and drop them into a bowl of water. Let them sit for 2-4 minutes. If your hair floats, you have low porosity hair. If it sinks, you have high porosity hair. If it stays in the middle, meaning it neither floats nor sinks, you have medium porosity hair.
The second method involves taking a strand of hair and sliding your fingers up the shaft (towards the scalp). If you feel little bumps along the way, this means that your hair cuticle is lifted and that you have high porosity hair. If your fingers slip smoothly, then you have low porosity hair.
Knowing your hairs porosity is the most important step in your natural hair journey. This determines what products will and will not work on your hair. It determines what reaction your hair will have to certain climates and humidity. This is going to be your best friend. So I encourage you all, if you don't know your hair porosity find out as soon as possible. It will make your natural hair journey sooooo much easier.
I hope this helps you out a little. Again, this is only the beginning. I will address curl pattern, coloring and dying, what products I use, the curly girl method, the LOC and LCO method etc in later blogs. This is just the basics and the start to a healthy natural hair journey.
Mwah,
Moeneak
Sunday, December 28, 2014
Sunday, October 26, 2014
A few things every woman should re-evaluate in her mid-20s
Hey LOVIES!!
Happy Sunday!! I do hope that you are all doing well. Start of a brand new week. New start. New memories. New journeys. Live in the moment and enjoy them!! I am a little behind, but thank you all for the sweet happy birthday messages. You lovies really do rock. I had the absolute BEST birthday with my family and friends. So thank you again.
As I creep towards my late 20s, 2 away from the big old 30, I am slowly starting to become a more stable and solid person. My mid-20s, as I'm sure it was for many others, was a period of mild insecurities after realizing I didn't fit into any standard category anymore. Are you confused? Well, here's what I mean, recent college graduate, wife, or mother. Nope. It has taken some time to graduate from being asked "what are you majoring in?' to "what do you do for a living?".....to then realizing my life is not based on labels but it is all the rest that matters-like the people that I have encountered along the way, and the experiences and how I have given back.
I think reconsidering earlier life choices has helped me most to understand where exactly I needed to be and who I am as a person. It is so easy to get caught up in all of the day-to-day functions we've always done without fighting to know if it's right or if it will move us forward. So I just wanted to let you all in some things that helped me re-evaluate the direction of my life and how I can improve it going into my 30s.
1. Friends.....it's so easy to get caught up in the hype of keeping friends from high school and college around simply because you've known them for so long. But the question that we must ask ourselves is are your friends helping or hindering you? Do they support you and your goals? Do they offer support that helps you in reaching those goals? Do they make you a better person? And most importantly, are they putting in equal effort into the relationship? If the answer for all of these questions is not yes, it is certainly time for you to find some new friends who will share and support your goals and aspirations. We are getting to old to be carrying another adults dead weight around with us. Let them go.
2. Career.....I am going to assume that you all have a few years of professional work experience under your belts, so why not take your career to the next step? Moving from an entry-level to mid-level position, negotiating a higher salary, or maybe even moving into another job field or company completely if you are not happy where you are at. You are not a new employee anymore, you have good work experience and assets that need to be shared and utilized. Go for it!!! Step into a career that only brings home the bacon, but make it one that you absolutely love doing. Trust me, working at a job that you hate is the absolute worst. Been there and done that and don't wish to do it again.
3. Dating habits.....Haven't we all wondered why every date turns out to be a flop???? Well, lets be honest, just because there are plenty fish in the sea doesn't mean that they are all edible (which isn't your fault so to speak) But, if you are starting to recognize a pattern in your fishing flops, it is time redesign your criteria. Step back and take a moment and get to know yourself. Date yourself for a while. Learn who you are as a person and what you can bring and carry in the relationship. Learn your rolls and perfect them. Be prepared for when God does bring your husband along, you will be able to keep him and not chase him away. Love yourself first....lets just start there. The rest will follow.
4. Living situations.....If can be a great idea to save some money by living with roommates (never has been my cup of tea, but too each his/her own lol) at this point in your life you can probably afford to branch out and live on your own though. Living alone teaches you independence and you get to learn yourself just a little better. Living alone is a great opportunity to experience before becoming marrying and starting a family. So why not do it? Is it always peaches and cream? Heck no, it's hard at times. But the reward is far greater. Step out there and trust in your abilities. You are going to fall, but this is all apart of being an adult. Pick yourself back up and try again. Ladies, you can do this!!!
5. Saving habits.....Some of you might or might not be saving already. If you are not. START!! Your mid-20s is the time to step it up and take it to another notch. Challenge yourself and meet the goals. Even if it's $10 from every pay check that you put into your savings account and never touch. It's small, but it is a starting point. Set up some budgets and stick to them. I can't stress this enough to you. This might have been one of my hardest things to figure out. My parents and God parents stayed on me about this budgeting and thank God they did. If you don't already pay your tithes. Give your 10%. This my friend is the key to your life and blessings. This is mandatory! Also, you may think that saving for retirement means nothing now and it might not seem important, but these are the years where your money will earn the most. SAVE...SAVE...SAVE!
6. Hobbies.....This is the stage where you form interests and hobbies that go beyond school and work. Step out and try something new. Meet new friends that can be there for the rest of your life. If nothing else, it will give you more to talk about beyond what you do for a living. I started this pretty late in the game. I stuck to the norm of hobbies that I've had for years...soccer, cooking, reading blah blah blah. Boring. Lol. Now I'm doing things I never dreamed of. I am enjoying my life to the fullest and you should too :)
7. Relationships.....Examine your relationships with the people that you can't get rid of, like family members and co-workers. Are you treating them how you want to be treated? Are you holding onto unnecessary grudges and resentment that is not helpful for your well being? If so.......LET IT GO. Forgive them and yourself and move on. It's time to grow up and face reality. It happened, there's nothing that can be done to change the past so drop it and move onto better!! Start living your life and be happy about it.
8. RELIGION.....I don't know what your background of religion is but if you don't have one, this is an awesome time re-evaluate your spirituality and what it means to you. Maybe you need to revisit the idea of religion, or become stronger in it. What ever the case maybe, know God for yourself. Know him in the strength and might and let him take the wheel and drive you through life. God is one of the faithful few. He will never leave you nor forsake and he will direct your paths, if you let him. He is a keeper, an encourager, a provider, a healer and anything else that you need for him to be. Establish a relationship with him and watch how awesome your life becomes!!
I am no expert but these are all things that helped me in my 20s and I just wanted to offer some help to you all. Take them for what they are worth and use them how you like. I have to get ready for church now and prep my lasagna for dinner. Yummy!!
I love you lovies,
Moeneak Love
As I creep towards my late 20s, 2 away from the big old 30, I am slowly starting to become a more stable and solid person. My mid-20s, as I'm sure it was for many others, was a period of mild insecurities after realizing I didn't fit into any standard category anymore. Are you confused? Well, here's what I mean, recent college graduate, wife, or mother. Nope. It has taken some time to graduate from being asked "what are you majoring in?' to "what do you do for a living?".....to then realizing my life is not based on labels but it is all the rest that matters-like the people that I have encountered along the way, and the experiences and how I have given back.
I think reconsidering earlier life choices has helped me most to understand where exactly I needed to be and who I am as a person. It is so easy to get caught up in all of the day-to-day functions we've always done without fighting to know if it's right or if it will move us forward. So I just wanted to let you all in some things that helped me re-evaluate the direction of my life and how I can improve it going into my 30s.
1. Friends.....it's so easy to get caught up in the hype of keeping friends from high school and college around simply because you've known them for so long. But the question that we must ask ourselves is are your friends helping or hindering you? Do they support you and your goals? Do they offer support that helps you in reaching those goals? Do they make you a better person? And most importantly, are they putting in equal effort into the relationship? If the answer for all of these questions is not yes, it is certainly time for you to find some new friends who will share and support your goals and aspirations. We are getting to old to be carrying another adults dead weight around with us. Let them go.
2. Career.....I am going to assume that you all have a few years of professional work experience under your belts, so why not take your career to the next step? Moving from an entry-level to mid-level position, negotiating a higher salary, or maybe even moving into another job field or company completely if you are not happy where you are at. You are not a new employee anymore, you have good work experience and assets that need to be shared and utilized. Go for it!!! Step into a career that only brings home the bacon, but make it one that you absolutely love doing. Trust me, working at a job that you hate is the absolute worst. Been there and done that and don't wish to do it again.
3. Dating habits.....Haven't we all wondered why every date turns out to be a flop???? Well, lets be honest, just because there are plenty fish in the sea doesn't mean that they are all edible (which isn't your fault so to speak) But, if you are starting to recognize a pattern in your fishing flops, it is time redesign your criteria. Step back and take a moment and get to know yourself. Date yourself for a while. Learn who you are as a person and what you can bring and carry in the relationship. Learn your rolls and perfect them. Be prepared for when God does bring your husband along, you will be able to keep him and not chase him away. Love yourself first....lets just start there. The rest will follow.
4. Living situations.....If can be a great idea to save some money by living with roommates (never has been my cup of tea, but too each his/her own lol) at this point in your life you can probably afford to branch out and live on your own though. Living alone teaches you independence and you get to learn yourself just a little better. Living alone is a great opportunity to experience before becoming marrying and starting a family. So why not do it? Is it always peaches and cream? Heck no, it's hard at times. But the reward is far greater. Step out there and trust in your abilities. You are going to fall, but this is all apart of being an adult. Pick yourself back up and try again. Ladies, you can do this!!!
5. Saving habits.....Some of you might or might not be saving already. If you are not. START!! Your mid-20s is the time to step it up and take it to another notch. Challenge yourself and meet the goals. Even if it's $10 from every pay check that you put into your savings account and never touch. It's small, but it is a starting point. Set up some budgets and stick to them. I can't stress this enough to you. This might have been one of my hardest things to figure out. My parents and God parents stayed on me about this budgeting and thank God they did. If you don't already pay your tithes. Give your 10%. This my friend is the key to your life and blessings. This is mandatory! Also, you may think that saving for retirement means nothing now and it might not seem important, but these are the years where your money will earn the most. SAVE...SAVE...SAVE!
6. Hobbies.....This is the stage where you form interests and hobbies that go beyond school and work. Step out and try something new. Meet new friends that can be there for the rest of your life. If nothing else, it will give you more to talk about beyond what you do for a living. I started this pretty late in the game. I stuck to the norm of hobbies that I've had for years...soccer, cooking, reading blah blah blah. Boring. Lol. Now I'm doing things I never dreamed of. I am enjoying my life to the fullest and you should too :)
7. Relationships.....Examine your relationships with the people that you can't get rid of, like family members and co-workers. Are you treating them how you want to be treated? Are you holding onto unnecessary grudges and resentment that is not helpful for your well being? If so.......LET IT GO. Forgive them and yourself and move on. It's time to grow up and face reality. It happened, there's nothing that can be done to change the past so drop it and move onto better!! Start living your life and be happy about it.
8. RELIGION.....I don't know what your background of religion is but if you don't have one, this is an awesome time re-evaluate your spirituality and what it means to you. Maybe you need to revisit the idea of religion, or become stronger in it. What ever the case maybe, know God for yourself. Know him in the strength and might and let him take the wheel and drive you through life. God is one of the faithful few. He will never leave you nor forsake and he will direct your paths, if you let him. He is a keeper, an encourager, a provider, a healer and anything else that you need for him to be. Establish a relationship with him and watch how awesome your life becomes!!
I am no expert but these are all things that helped me in my 20s and I just wanted to offer some help to you all. Take them for what they are worth and use them how you like. I have to get ready for church now and prep my lasagna for dinner. Yummy!!
I love you lovies,
Moeneak Love
Wednesday, October 15, 2014
So long 27....hello 28
Hello my LOVIES!!!!!!
As I look back over my life. I can see, how the Lord was guiding me. Even though I've done wrong, he never left me alone. He forgave me and he kept on blessing. This I recall to my mind; therefore, I have hope!!! It's because of your mercy, that I was not consumed. I can never repay you Lord for what you've done for me!!! You've been....Lord, you've been so faithful!!
If you would have asked me 4 years ago how I'd be in 5 years I would have told you I would have thrown in all of my towels and given up. I had no more fight left in me. I was backed in a corner with no help. No strength to fight another battle. I had literally given up on my life. On myself. On everything including God. Some same I was a lost cause and I would have agreed.
4 years later and I am standing stronger than ever before. It was nobody but God. He has had his hands on me all along. Fighting every battle and building me up. 27 was a hard year. It forced me to see Moeneak for who she was. I lost some close and important family memebers to me which almost made me give up yet again. I was stripped of every strength that I had in people and I was forced to depend on God. Nobody but God!!! So today I just want to send a special gratitude to my Father, my Lord and Savior, my God and let you know just how grateful I am. I now see that every trial and tribulation was a stepping stone building me up just a little bit more and moving me in the will and plan that you have for my life. Thank you for your countless forgiveness, your patience with me, your faithfulness, and most importantly for you being God all by yourself! I would have never made it without you!! I could not be more excited to leave 27 and step into my 28th year.
I don't care what you're going through. Hold onto God and the promises that he has made to you. Try God and see just how good he is. I am a walking testimony of so much. And all thanks goes to God. Hold on Lovies, troubles don't last always. Hold your head up. Forgive yourself. Pick yourself up and keep pressing forward. As long as you're moving forward you're going somewhere. Weed out all negativity. Surround yourself around people who see greatness in you and push you towards better. This life is what you make it and I believe this will be the greatest year of my life and yours too!!!
I love you all soooooooo much!!!!
Moeneak Love
Saturday, September 27, 2014
Live like you're dying!
Hey my LOVIES!!!
How are you all doing? Well, I hope. Let me just give you a recap on what's been happening in my life since the last blog. Work has been......well work. Lol. Life is really good. I'm in a good space and I'm just enjoying life.
I am currently in Gatlinburg, TN for the weekend. This weekend has been such an eye opener for me. I have learned to stop....take a moment....and really enjoy life.
A few years back I wrote out my "bucket list" and yes, I know what some of you're thinking. I know that people usually do this when they are dying. I am not dying (at least I don't think I am and I hope that I am not lol) but I really wanted to do something's before my life is over. Some of those things included riding a roller coaster, bungee jumping, Sky diving, zip lining, swimming with the Dolphins etc. Most of these things I am afraid of and for good reasons I'd imagine. But this was a weekend where so many of my "to do things" we're readily available. There was no backing down now. I am proud to say that I conquered my fears. I rode a few roller coasters (more than one time might I add) I went zip lining (9 courses long) and I bungee jumped.......twice. Crazy, I know but I enjoyed every single moment of it. The bungee jumping is still by far my favorite.
While standing on the ladder I begin to think about my life and the direction that it is taking. My knees buckled. I was terribly afraid. All kinds of questions running through my head. What if this rope breaks? What if this mat doesn't catch me? What if I accidentally jump before it's time? Lord, this is plum crazy. And then a Tim McGraw song hit me saying someday I hope you get the chance, to live like you're dying. And boom, before I knew it I jumped. I was swaying in the air with nothing holding me but a rope. I remember saying, "Wow God, this is absolutely amazing!!" I felt so free. I had no care in the world. I was in total utter relaxation mode floating through the air.
I had conquered a fear and crossed something off my bucket list at the same time. That moment brought about a very different motivation and feeling. It's unexplainable though. It is only a feeling that you can feel by being in that moment. To know that you have reached down and overcome something that most people would never even imagine doing is awesome.
My advice to you all is to live everyday as if you were dying. While zip lining I meet an awesome women...sweet Mary Ann. Mary Ann was an 84 year old women who was dying. She lives with an oxygen tank attached to her at all times
. Mary Ann wanted to go zip lining with her entire family before she died. And she did just that. On this trip Mary Ann really touched me. She showed me the importance of living everyday like it is your last. She showed how important it is to conquer any fears that you have because you never know when your time will come. Even though Mary Ann was dying she had the most beautiful spirit. She kept a huge smile on her face that would light up a room.
Live for today loves. Enjoy each day with your loved ones as if it's your last. Enjoy your life. Conquer fears. Use your strengths and abilities that God blessed us all with. Step out of your comfort zone. The rewards are far greater then you could ever imagine!!! Life is about moments. Don't wait for them......CREATE THEM!!
Love you babes,
Moeneak
Tuesday, September 16, 2014
Divorce was NEVER in the plan
Hey Lovies,
September 06, 2009....... a day that was supposed to be the happiest day in my life. I waited twenty two long years to be in this position. I dreamed about my wedding day for so long. My envision of what it would be like, my envision of what a marriage was supposed to resemble. It was a day that I believed was the best day of my life. I stood there with a huge smile on my face. A mask of smiles that I had worn for over two years. I longed and prayed for others to see through the smile and connect with the hurt and pain that I was really experiencing. But if they were to see through the hurt would I listen? Would I take the necessary steps to get me out of this situation? Or would I ignore them and continue to live in this pain? How long would I allow myself to endure this unhappiness? How long would I try to prove to the people who said that my marriage wouldn't last past a year that I could stick it out and overcome? When does enough become enough? When does my desire for total and complete happiness come first?
September 06, 2010....... the day that my world shattered and crashed to the ground. (Or so I believed) The day that I signed my divorce papers. The day that I was freed from all traces of unhappiness, hurt, and pain. The day that my life started over. The day that I should have realized that I was being blessed with a second chance at life. The day that changed my life forever......
For those of you who don't know, back in 2009 I made the best and worst decision of my life by getting married. I say best and worst because now looking back on it and all of the knowledge that I gained from the experience, I have every right to be grateful. I like most women in the world had a vision and plan for my life. Ladies, you know the be married by a certain age, have children by this age, establish yourself in a career plan. Yeah, well my plan was to be married by 22, have my first child at age 25, and be established in my Psychology career completely by 30. Ha. That certainly didn't go as planned. Although, I was married by 22 but never was it in the plan for me to be divorced by 23. But boy does life have a way of throwing curve balls at you. My decision to marry my ex-husband was based solely on a plan. Did I love him? Absolutely. Was I even remotely close to being ready for a life long commit like marriage? Absolutely not. But I had a plan. Was he ready for a life long commit like marriage? Uh...no. Was I aware of this?? Of course...but, I had a plan. You see, I had a plan and that plan was going to be followed regardless of the outcome. I didn't care about being unhappy. I didn't care about being hurt. I didn't care about the disfunction. I didn't care about MOENEAK. I cared about Moeneak's plan and only that.
I never realized how much I was hurting myself until I moved 6.5 hours away from my family and friends. I was taken out of my comfort zone and thrown into an environment that I was not mentally, physically, or emotionally able to deal with. My marriage had its share of ups and downs. Just like any marriage. More downs than ups for me though. I lost myself in this marriage. I tried so hard to be someone that I wasn't and to prove to those around me that I was built for this. I tried to be this strong and submissive women to a man who I didn't trust to run our household. A man who I felt no sense of security with. A man who I was not happy with. A man who I was never intended to be with. A man who I was afraid of. A man who I didn't walk side by side with because we could never agree on anything. Now I know some of you might think that I place the blame on him...well I don't. I fault no one but myself. I made the decision to connect myself with someone who I should not have. I made the decision to disobey proper guidance from others when it came to marrying him. I made the decision to remain in a relationship that was not allowing me to grow and better myself. I am not angry with my ex-husband. I am angry with myself. I know better. I was not raised like this. I was raised as a very strong, independent women. I was raised to know right from wrong. But if I turn away now what will others say about me? How will other people look at me? How long before everyone forgets about this? How long before the hurt and pain ends?
September 16, 2014.......I am now 27 years old. A lot wiser and a lot happier. I have no husband....no children....and I am still not in my field of study. I am happier then I have ever been in my life, I am free, I am at a place where I can lift up my hands and thank God for allowing me to go through my marriage and divorce experience. It was an experience that taught me the importance of having a relationship with God. It taught me how honorable and valueable marriage can be when you're marrying the one that God has predestined for you to marry. It taught me the power of walking in agreement. It taught me how to love Moeneak even when no one else will. It taught me the importance of communication. It taught me that it is okay for me to be weak and allow God to be my strength. It taught me that my plans are certainly not like God's plans and that even though I don't always understand his will for my life it's better to just follow him. It taught me that it's okay to mess up. Without a mess up I would never know God can pick me up and turn my whole entire world around. I am not my past failures. I am not my past mistakes. I am not that 22 year old girl without a voice. I stand strong in my beliefs and I now know and believe for myself that I am far more worthy of everything that God has for me. I disobeyed him and he yet and still gave me a way of escape. He yet blessed me with far more than I could ever imagine. My marriage and divorce was a stepping stone to get me to this exact place that I am in right now. I would not be who I am today without this experience. It took me 4 years to get to this place that I am in now. Emotionally. I have those days where I long to be married and I know that it will happen for me but not at the cost of a plan dealine. At the right time and with the right man that God has for me.
Always remember that just because you have a plan for your life it doesn't mean that God has the same plan. Line up with his plan and watch how amazing your life will be. Just like me you can recover. It takes time to heal all wounds but it is possible. Never neglect who you are for anyone. Stand strong and firm on what you believe in. Your happiness is what ultimately matters. And finally you will realize...you can't force "it" to be something. You can't force consistency, loyalty, or even honesty. You can't force them to keep their word, or to communicate, or to realize something special is in front of them...we've all been there and done that. Know your worth!!!
Love you much,
Moeneak
September 06, 2009....... a day that was supposed to be the happiest day in my life. I waited twenty two long years to be in this position. I dreamed about my wedding day for so long. My envision of what it would be like, my envision of what a marriage was supposed to resemble. It was a day that I believed was the best day of my life. I stood there with a huge smile on my face. A mask of smiles that I had worn for over two years. I longed and prayed for others to see through the smile and connect with the hurt and pain that I was really experiencing. But if they were to see through the hurt would I listen? Would I take the necessary steps to get me out of this situation? Or would I ignore them and continue to live in this pain? How long would I allow myself to endure this unhappiness? How long would I try to prove to the people who said that my marriage wouldn't last past a year that I could stick it out and overcome? When does enough become enough? When does my desire for total and complete happiness come first?
September 06, 2010....... the day that my world shattered and crashed to the ground. (Or so I believed) The day that I signed my divorce papers. The day that I was freed from all traces of unhappiness, hurt, and pain. The day that my life started over. The day that I should have realized that I was being blessed with a second chance at life. The day that changed my life forever......
For those of you who don't know, back in 2009 I made the best and worst decision of my life by getting married. I say best and worst because now looking back on it and all of the knowledge that I gained from the experience, I have every right to be grateful. I like most women in the world had a vision and plan for my life. Ladies, you know the be married by a certain age, have children by this age, establish yourself in a career plan. Yeah, well my plan was to be married by 22, have my first child at age 25, and be established in my Psychology career completely by 30. Ha. That certainly didn't go as planned. Although, I was married by 22 but never was it in the plan for me to be divorced by 23. But boy does life have a way of throwing curve balls at you. My decision to marry my ex-husband was based solely on a plan. Did I love him? Absolutely. Was I even remotely close to being ready for a life long commit like marriage? Absolutely not. But I had a plan. Was he ready for a life long commit like marriage? Uh...no. Was I aware of this?? Of course...but, I had a plan. You see, I had a plan and that plan was going to be followed regardless of the outcome. I didn't care about being unhappy. I didn't care about being hurt. I didn't care about the disfunction. I didn't care about MOENEAK. I cared about Moeneak's plan and only that.
I never realized how much I was hurting myself until I moved 6.5 hours away from my family and friends. I was taken out of my comfort zone and thrown into an environment that I was not mentally, physically, or emotionally able to deal with. My marriage had its share of ups and downs. Just like any marriage. More downs than ups for me though. I lost myself in this marriage. I tried so hard to be someone that I wasn't and to prove to those around me that I was built for this. I tried to be this strong and submissive women to a man who I didn't trust to run our household. A man who I felt no sense of security with. A man who I was not happy with. A man who I was never intended to be with. A man who I was afraid of. A man who I didn't walk side by side with because we could never agree on anything. Now I know some of you might think that I place the blame on him...well I don't. I fault no one but myself. I made the decision to connect myself with someone who I should not have. I made the decision to disobey proper guidance from others when it came to marrying him. I made the decision to remain in a relationship that was not allowing me to grow and better myself. I am not angry with my ex-husband. I am angry with myself. I know better. I was not raised like this. I was raised as a very strong, independent women. I was raised to know right from wrong. But if I turn away now what will others say about me? How will other people look at me? How long before everyone forgets about this? How long before the hurt and pain ends?
September 16, 2014.......I am now 27 years old. A lot wiser and a lot happier. I have no husband....no children....and I am still not in my field of study. I am happier then I have ever been in my life, I am free, I am at a place where I can lift up my hands and thank God for allowing me to go through my marriage and divorce experience. It was an experience that taught me the importance of having a relationship with God. It taught me how honorable and valueable marriage can be when you're marrying the one that God has predestined for you to marry. It taught me the power of walking in agreement. It taught me how to love Moeneak even when no one else will. It taught me the importance of communication. It taught me that it is okay for me to be weak and allow God to be my strength. It taught me that my plans are certainly not like God's plans and that even though I don't always understand his will for my life it's better to just follow him. It taught me that it's okay to mess up. Without a mess up I would never know God can pick me up and turn my whole entire world around. I am not my past failures. I am not my past mistakes. I am not that 22 year old girl without a voice. I stand strong in my beliefs and I now know and believe for myself that I am far more worthy of everything that God has for me. I disobeyed him and he yet and still gave me a way of escape. He yet blessed me with far more than I could ever imagine. My marriage and divorce was a stepping stone to get me to this exact place that I am in right now. I would not be who I am today without this experience. It took me 4 years to get to this place that I am in now. Emotionally. I have those days where I long to be married and I know that it will happen for me but not at the cost of a plan dealine. At the right time and with the right man that God has for me.
Always remember that just because you have a plan for your life it doesn't mean that God has the same plan. Line up with his plan and watch how amazing your life will be. Just like me you can recover. It takes time to heal all wounds but it is possible. Never neglect who you are for anyone. Stand strong and firm on what you believe in. Your happiness is what ultimately matters. And finally you will realize...you can't force "it" to be something. You can't force consistency, loyalty, or even honesty. You can't force them to keep their word, or to communicate, or to realize something special is in front of them...we've all been there and done that. Know your worth!!!
Love you much,
Moeneak
Friday, September 12, 2014
Thank you Tiana and Catrice 😘
They say a good friend is hard to find and once you find one hold on tight and never let them go. Well, today I would just like to thank God for blessing me to see two of my best friends live another year. Tiana and Catrice have been the definition of true friends. They've been there during some of the trying times of my life, during my happiest moments of life, during my craziest moments of life. I've shed a many tears with these women but I've shed even more smiles and laughter with these ladies.
For years I've struggled with giving myself so freely to others and received nothing in return. But these women have never taken me through that. Our friendship is not based on who calls or texts each other the most, it's not based on what one can do or not do for each other, it's not unbalanced. It's designed to cater and fit everyone of our individual needs. These ladies are real with me and they allow me to be real with them. They allow me to be the real Moeneak. I don't have to put on a front in front of them in fear of them judging me. I can talk to them about God knows what and I know they'll be there to hear me.
I have witnessed them overcome some hills, and obstacles that probably would have broke most of us. These women are strong, independent, head strong go getters. I look up to them and the drive that they have is often times unrealistic. I question God and ask why and how I was so lucky to come out with such great friends. And now the tears begin to roll. Smh, I'm such a freaking baby.
But on today I want to give honor and credit where it's due. These women have helped me on my journey of life and I don't tell them thank you enough. So thank you Catrice and Tiana. Thank you for giving yourselves to me so freely, thank you for trusting me and allowing me to share your lives with you, thank you for sticking it out and not giving up on me like so many other "friends" have, thank you for allowing me to be Moeneak, thank you for accepting me flaws and all, thank you for never turning me away when I needed you or didn't need you, thank you for going down this journey of life with me, and most importantly thank you for just being you.
I don't know what the future holds for anyone of us but I wouldn't want to experience it without you ladies. Keep striving for better, you're deserving of everything this world has to offer.
I love you ladies. Happy Birthday!!! (Yearly birthday song coming ASAP, and NO I still don't know the lyrics) 😂😂😂😂😘😘😘
Moeneak
Sunday, September 7, 2014
You're the CEO of your life
Happy Sunday Lovies!!
Often times in our life it is nice to have people in your corner to lean on and people that have known us since we were little. Those are the people who tend to know your story from the very beginning. They are the ones who know you best. Although, no one can stand in your shoes and know every little detail of what it is like to walk in your shoes. No one has been through the exact same battle that you have been through and nobody knows what it feels like to be you. No one except for you, of course.
When I look back on my life and the many friends that I've had there have been times when I've felt very lonely and wished that my life was as glorious as there lives "appeared" to be. I say appeared because we all know that everything that glitters is not gold. We are all battling our own separate battles everyday. Some just hide the battle better then others; but nevertheless, there is a battle. You notice that people start venturing out into the world and becoming adults, while some are just struggling to make it through that specific day. It seems like everyone is finding their perfect soul mate whom they'll spend the rest of their lives with while some of us only have a comfy blanket and a teddy bear that we cuddle up with at night. For some they will say just how sad that really is but hey, it's the reality for several of us. Some of us are walking into careers that we have dreamed of our entire lives and others are in a battle trying to figure out exactly who they are. And then there are those who have absolutely zero motivation to strive for anything in life but only to have things handed to them. And trust me, these are all stages in my life that I have experienced and yet and still experience. Minus the last one, I am very motivated about the things that I want out of life and the direction that I see my life heading in, but I have had obstacles thrown in my way that at times have caused me to focus my attention else where.
I dropped out of college a few years back when I went through my divorce. I was in a very low place and the 20 plus years that I spent building myself up and believing in my greatness was shattered in a blink of an eye. I started to battle with low self esteem, I gained a tremendous amount of weight, I cried and beat myself up for years. I questioned why something so horrible and tragic had to happen to me. I will not go into the details because I plan on sharing that story in another blog, but just know that even though the odds were stacked against me I fought through the pain. I fought through the tears. I fought through the slandering of my name and character. I fought and I pressed my way and I came out standing much taller than I myself even expected. It took for me to go through that situation because it taught me that I am in charge of my own happiness. My happiness is not predicated on what others say about me or what they bring to the table. It showed me that self love is such an important trait to possess. It showed me that making a move in the wrong season of your life can be very much detrimental to your path in which you are taking. The whole don't be "unequally yoked" scripture.......very much a truth to it. Not just in marriage, but life in general. Whether it be with friendships, family, or work peers. Don't get yourself caught up in something that can hinder your purpose in life. Surround yourself around people who are going in similar directions as you, people who want similar things out of life as you, people who can push you and motivate you to want better for yourself, people who can pray and believe for you when you are not strong enough to pray and believe for yourself. People who you can trust and that will be there to stand with you when the loads get heavy because trust me, they will get heavy. I am thankful for my struggles because without them I would not have stumbled across my strengths.
Most importantly trust in your self. Believe in your own strengths. Get to a place where you can push and motivate yourself even when no one else will do it. You are your biggest cheerleader. You are your biggest fan. Don't doubt yourself while you go through the tough moments of your life. Tell yourself that this will only last for a season and in due time you will come out of it. Tell yourself that you are more than a conqueror. Tell yourself that you deserve better and that you can have whatever your heart desires. Tell yourself that you are beautiful, fearfully, and wonderfully made. Surround yourself around positivity and positivity will show on you. Speak positive things into your life and positive things will begin to happen for you. The Bible says that the power of life and death is in your tongue. So say something encouraging to yourself everyday. Give yourself a compliment everyday. Love yourself a little bit more everyday. Be the best you that you can be everyday. Yesterday is done and over with so don't bring the troubles of yesterday into your tomorrow. Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be.
I love you all
XOXO
Moeneak :)
Often times in our life it is nice to have people in your corner to lean on and people that have known us since we were little. Those are the people who tend to know your story from the very beginning. They are the ones who know you best. Although, no one can stand in your shoes and know every little detail of what it is like to walk in your shoes. No one has been through the exact same battle that you have been through and nobody knows what it feels like to be you. No one except for you, of course.
When I look back on my life and the many friends that I've had there have been times when I've felt very lonely and wished that my life was as glorious as there lives "appeared" to be. I say appeared because we all know that everything that glitters is not gold. We are all battling our own separate battles everyday. Some just hide the battle better then others; but nevertheless, there is a battle. You notice that people start venturing out into the world and becoming adults, while some are just struggling to make it through that specific day. It seems like everyone is finding their perfect soul mate whom they'll spend the rest of their lives with while some of us only have a comfy blanket and a teddy bear that we cuddle up with at night. For some they will say just how sad that really is but hey, it's the reality for several of us. Some of us are walking into careers that we have dreamed of our entire lives and others are in a battle trying to figure out exactly who they are. And then there are those who have absolutely zero motivation to strive for anything in life but only to have things handed to them. And trust me, these are all stages in my life that I have experienced and yet and still experience. Minus the last one, I am very motivated about the things that I want out of life and the direction that I see my life heading in, but I have had obstacles thrown in my way that at times have caused me to focus my attention else where.
I dropped out of college a few years back when I went through my divorce. I was in a very low place and the 20 plus years that I spent building myself up and believing in my greatness was shattered in a blink of an eye. I started to battle with low self esteem, I gained a tremendous amount of weight, I cried and beat myself up for years. I questioned why something so horrible and tragic had to happen to me. I will not go into the details because I plan on sharing that story in another blog, but just know that even though the odds were stacked against me I fought through the pain. I fought through the tears. I fought through the slandering of my name and character. I fought and I pressed my way and I came out standing much taller than I myself even expected. It took for me to go through that situation because it taught me that I am in charge of my own happiness. My happiness is not predicated on what others say about me or what they bring to the table. It showed me that self love is such an important trait to possess. It showed me that making a move in the wrong season of your life can be very much detrimental to your path in which you are taking. The whole don't be "unequally yoked" scripture.......very much a truth to it. Not just in marriage, but life in general. Whether it be with friendships, family, or work peers. Don't get yourself caught up in something that can hinder your purpose in life. Surround yourself around people who are going in similar directions as you, people who want similar things out of life as you, people who can push you and motivate you to want better for yourself, people who can pray and believe for you when you are not strong enough to pray and believe for yourself. People who you can trust and that will be there to stand with you when the loads get heavy because trust me, they will get heavy. I am thankful for my struggles because without them I would not have stumbled across my strengths.
Most importantly trust in your self. Believe in your own strengths. Get to a place where you can push and motivate yourself even when no one else will do it. You are your biggest cheerleader. You are your biggest fan. Don't doubt yourself while you go through the tough moments of your life. Tell yourself that this will only last for a season and in due time you will come out of it. Tell yourself that you are more than a conqueror. Tell yourself that you deserve better and that you can have whatever your heart desires. Tell yourself that you are beautiful, fearfully, and wonderfully made. Surround yourself around positivity and positivity will show on you. Speak positive things into your life and positive things will begin to happen for you. The Bible says that the power of life and death is in your tongue. So say something encouraging to yourself everyday. Give yourself a compliment everyday. Love yourself a little bit more everyday. Be the best you that you can be everyday. Yesterday is done and over with so don't bring the troubles of yesterday into your tomorrow. Accept what is, let go of what was, and have faith in what will be.
I love you all
XOXO
Moeneak :)
Saturday, September 6, 2014
Tip toe if you must.....but take the step :)
Hello LOVIES!!!
How are you all doing on this lovely Saturday?? I hope you are all doing well. Can we please take a moment to admire this beautiful fall season that we are stepping into?? Fall is certainly my FAVORITE season. The leaves start to changing colors, the weather is just right, the fall fragrances start coming out and most importantly it's a step closer to my favorite holiday.......CHRISTMAS!! 15 Saturdays and 5 days closer to be exact. :)
I felt the need to clear up some things about my blog that I haven't yet spoken on. In an earlier blog I spoke about how I was praying to God about my blog. Whether it was something that I needed to continue on in or if it were something that would draw me away from more important things in life. I personally believe that my confirmation came and blogging is definitely something I will continue to do; as long as, you'll continue to support me and read them. I have talked to several people from all walks of life, and several of my mentors and I am going to remain reconciling people to God and speaking words of encouragement to those that feel discouraged. My God dad always tells me that God has not given us a ministry of condemnation but a ministry of reconciliation. All people really need and want to know is that there is a life beyond their pain. (Pastor Demetries Ceaser)
This is not a blog page where I will in anyway preach to you. Your faith and beliefs are yours and my faith and beliefs are mine. I believe in God, Jesus, and everything else that the Bible speaks on...therefore, you will read about some of that on my blogs. You will read about my personal testimonies of things he has healed me from, things that he has brought me out of, ways that he has made for me and any other awesome things that he has done for me. I will in no way, shape, form, or fashion knock you or judge you if you have other beliefs. All I ask is that you respect my beliefs and not judge or criticize me for them. Most of my blogs that I post are my personal testimonies of things that I have battled, things that I have overcome, and things that I am struggling or dealing with. I speak only from experience. I will in no way speak on anything that I have not gone through because I do not have any sound advice or knowledge to offer on the subjects.
I consider you all my family...this is a place where I get to be myself and offer words of encouragement for others, but you all are also free to offer words of encouragement back. I love when you all interact with me and ask me questions or send me nice little text messages and emails. It really brings a smile to my face. So feel free to comment on the blogs, continue to interact with me, voice your opinions, and offer your advice. I am always up for it. As some of you know, I always respond back to you. It might take some time but I always respond. If you have specific topics or things you would for me to discuss fell free to let me know and I will post a blog on it. Keep in mind, if it is something that I have not experienced or gone through I will have no answer for you but some words of encouragement or a prayer. I do not want to overstep my boundaries or tell you all anything wrong. I don't take your love for granted and I don't take it lightly. I appreciate everything that you do: from sharing my blogs, to encouraging me, to just allowing me to share my stories with you. Thank you for your support and lets continue on this walk together. Pushing and encouraging each other to strive for better!!!!
Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.
Have a beautiful weekend,
Moeneak :)
How are you all doing on this lovely Saturday?? I hope you are all doing well. Can we please take a moment to admire this beautiful fall season that we are stepping into?? Fall is certainly my FAVORITE season. The leaves start to changing colors, the weather is just right, the fall fragrances start coming out and most importantly it's a step closer to my favorite holiday.......CHRISTMAS!! 15 Saturdays and 5 days closer to be exact. :)
I felt the need to clear up some things about my blog that I haven't yet spoken on. In an earlier blog I spoke about how I was praying to God about my blog. Whether it was something that I needed to continue on in or if it were something that would draw me away from more important things in life. I personally believe that my confirmation came and blogging is definitely something I will continue to do; as long as, you'll continue to support me and read them. I have talked to several people from all walks of life, and several of my mentors and I am going to remain reconciling people to God and speaking words of encouragement to those that feel discouraged. My God dad always tells me that God has not given us a ministry of condemnation but a ministry of reconciliation. All people really need and want to know is that there is a life beyond their pain. (Pastor Demetries Ceaser)
This is not a blog page where I will in anyway preach to you. Your faith and beliefs are yours and my faith and beliefs are mine. I believe in God, Jesus, and everything else that the Bible speaks on...therefore, you will read about some of that on my blogs. You will read about my personal testimonies of things he has healed me from, things that he has brought me out of, ways that he has made for me and any other awesome things that he has done for me. I will in no way, shape, form, or fashion knock you or judge you if you have other beliefs. All I ask is that you respect my beliefs and not judge or criticize me for them. Most of my blogs that I post are my personal testimonies of things that I have battled, things that I have overcome, and things that I am struggling or dealing with. I speak only from experience. I will in no way speak on anything that I have not gone through because I do not have any sound advice or knowledge to offer on the subjects.
I consider you all my family...this is a place where I get to be myself and offer words of encouragement for others, but you all are also free to offer words of encouragement back. I love when you all interact with me and ask me questions or send me nice little text messages and emails. It really brings a smile to my face. So feel free to comment on the blogs, continue to interact with me, voice your opinions, and offer your advice. I am always up for it. As some of you know, I always respond back to you. It might take some time but I always respond. If you have specific topics or things you would for me to discuss fell free to let me know and I will post a blog on it. Keep in mind, if it is something that I have not experienced or gone through I will have no answer for you but some words of encouragement or a prayer. I do not want to overstep my boundaries or tell you all anything wrong. I don't take your love for granted and I don't take it lightly. I appreciate everything that you do: from sharing my blogs, to encouraging me, to just allowing me to share my stories with you. Thank you for your support and lets continue on this walk together. Pushing and encouraging each other to strive for better!!!!
Sometimes the smallest step in the right direction ends up being the biggest step of your life. Tip toe if you must, but take the step.
Have a beautiful weekend,
Moeneak :)
Tuesday, August 26, 2014
Endometriosis Update :)
Hey there Lovies!!!
I hope that you all have been doing well. :)
As you all know I recently came out about my ongoing battle with Endometriosis and I just want to personally take the time out to say THANK YOU so much for your ongoing support, prayers, and encouragement. You all are truly amazing. I had no idea how people would take that blog and I am overjoyed with the amount of positivity and feedback that I have received thus far. I've had some really cool people reach out to me about some remedies and natural methods that I can incorporate into my everyday life to get a handle on the pain. As stated in the last blog, there really is no definite cure for this disease but there are certain things that can be done in order to manage the pain so that your everyday life can continue on.
Now with that being sad, I have only been doing this method for about a month now so I haven't noticed a tremendous amount of change but nevertheless, I have noticed some change. Majority of this has a lot to do with eating habits and exercise. The first thing that I changed about my diet was the meats that I was consuming. I have never really been a huge pork and beef eater so it wasn't hard to cut those items out. I also don't eat a lot of meat in general, but for those days when I just crave meat I stick to chicken (usually baked or broiled. I rarely fry any of my foods) and tilapia and salmon. If I am in the mood for spaghetti, I use a turkey meat for that recipe. I also switched majority of my foods to gluten free items. I try to limit the amounts of sweets that I eat, which is a struggle for me because I love me some sweets BUT I have gotten better with my sugar intake. I try to eat items that contain natural sweets in them and not so much the artificial junk. I am not a huge bread eater so I don't struggle with that issue but if you're a bread eater it is necessary to cut back the amount of bread and wheat products that you're consuming. I am in the process of trying to cut sodas off........AGAIN. Those cherry Pepi's get me every time. Lol. I drink a lot of water and juices. I try to only drink juices that are 100% juices and not from concentrate. I drink hot teas with only 100% raw natural organic honey. I eat a crap ton of fruits and veggies. I am making preparations to get back into my juicing and smoothies so that is also under works. For the most part I eat a very strict diet. I am very conscious about the food that I put into my body. Are my eating habits perfect? Ha...absolutely not but I do make the effort to a clean eating lifestyle. This might seem extreme for most but this is just what I have noticed seems to be working for me. You can twist the methods to your personal liking. :)
Secondly, I was informed to pick up some evening primrose oil and calcium magnesium pills for this particular method. The way that it's written, it's based off of every 28 days.....basically your cycle. So here's how it goes.... Days 1-13 take nothing Days 14-20 take 2 calcium/magnesium supplements before bed. Days 21-28 take 2 calcium/magnesium supplement before bed, 1 evening primrose oil capsule Start back at Day 1 Let Day 1 be the first day after the last day of your cycle. Keep a calendar, set an alarm, whatever it takes to remember. Continue this cycle for at LEAST 3 months. If you see an improvement after 3 months, keep doing it every 28 days. As I stated, I am in the first month of this cycle so I haven't noticed a sever amount of change but for the time frame that I have been doing it my pain levels are not as bad. I do still experience some sharp pains here and there, mainly when I am ovulating but this new method that I am doing seems to be working some wonders in this here body of mine.
The reason that certain foods makes the symptoms of endometriosis worse is based on the chemical reactions in the body that are caused by the food groups. Endometriosis is fed by the estrogen synthesis in the body. Here are a list of foods to avoid if you suffer from endometriosis: wheat, red meats, refined and concentrated carbohydrates, refined sugars, and honey, caffeine, chocolate, dairy products, eggs, fried foods, saturated fats and oils, soy and soy protein products, convenience foods, tinned foods, additives and preservatives, and alcohol. Foods to eat include: beans, peas, lentils, onions, garlic, carrots, live yogurt, rhubarb, seeds and sprouted seeds, ginger, and green tea. Foods that will help in the balancing of hormones include: peas, bananas, red and purple berries, garlic, apples, fennel, parsley, cabbage, cauliflower, celery, nuts and seeds. And lastly here are a list of supplements that will help with endometriosis pains: magnesium, zinc, calcium, iron, B vitamins, Vitamin C, A, E, and Selenium.
I hope some of you found this to be helpful because I sure did. Have a wonderful week and I will update you again soon on my journey!!
Mwah,
Moeneak :)
I hope that you all have been doing well. :)
As you all know I recently came out about my ongoing battle with Endometriosis and I just want to personally take the time out to say THANK YOU so much for your ongoing support, prayers, and encouragement. You all are truly amazing. I had no idea how people would take that blog and I am overjoyed with the amount of positivity and feedback that I have received thus far. I've had some really cool people reach out to me about some remedies and natural methods that I can incorporate into my everyday life to get a handle on the pain. As stated in the last blog, there really is no definite cure for this disease but there are certain things that can be done in order to manage the pain so that your everyday life can continue on.
Now with that being sad, I have only been doing this method for about a month now so I haven't noticed a tremendous amount of change but nevertheless, I have noticed some change. Majority of this has a lot to do with eating habits and exercise. The first thing that I changed about my diet was the meats that I was consuming. I have never really been a huge pork and beef eater so it wasn't hard to cut those items out. I also don't eat a lot of meat in general, but for those days when I just crave meat I stick to chicken (usually baked or broiled. I rarely fry any of my foods) and tilapia and salmon. If I am in the mood for spaghetti, I use a turkey meat for that recipe. I also switched majority of my foods to gluten free items. I try to limit the amounts of sweets that I eat, which is a struggle for me because I love me some sweets BUT I have gotten better with my sugar intake. I try to eat items that contain natural sweets in them and not so much the artificial junk. I am not a huge bread eater so I don't struggle with that issue but if you're a bread eater it is necessary to cut back the amount of bread and wheat products that you're consuming. I am in the process of trying to cut sodas off........AGAIN. Those cherry Pepi's get me every time. Lol. I drink a lot of water and juices. I try to only drink juices that are 100% juices and not from concentrate. I drink hot teas with only 100% raw natural organic honey. I eat a crap ton of fruits and veggies. I am making preparations to get back into my juicing and smoothies so that is also under works. For the most part I eat a very strict diet. I am very conscious about the food that I put into my body. Are my eating habits perfect? Ha...absolutely not but I do make the effort to a clean eating lifestyle. This might seem extreme for most but this is just what I have noticed seems to be working for me. You can twist the methods to your personal liking. :)
Secondly, I was informed to pick up some evening primrose oil and calcium magnesium pills for this particular method. The way that it's written, it's based off of every 28 days.....basically your cycle. So here's how it goes.... Days 1-13 take nothing Days 14-20 take 2 calcium/magnesium supplements before bed. Days 21-28 take 2 calcium/magnesium supplement before bed, 1 evening primrose oil capsule Start back at Day 1 Let Day 1 be the first day after the last day of your cycle. Keep a calendar, set an alarm, whatever it takes to remember. Continue this cycle for at LEAST 3 months. If you see an improvement after 3 months, keep doing it every 28 days. As I stated, I am in the first month of this cycle so I haven't noticed a sever amount of change but for the time frame that I have been doing it my pain levels are not as bad. I do still experience some sharp pains here and there, mainly when I am ovulating but this new method that I am doing seems to be working some wonders in this here body of mine.
The reason that certain foods makes the symptoms of endometriosis worse is based on the chemical reactions in the body that are caused by the food groups. Endometriosis is fed by the estrogen synthesis in the body. Here are a list of foods to avoid if you suffer from endometriosis: wheat, red meats, refined and concentrated carbohydrates, refined sugars, and honey, caffeine, chocolate, dairy products, eggs, fried foods, saturated fats and oils, soy and soy protein products, convenience foods, tinned foods, additives and preservatives, and alcohol. Foods to eat include: beans, peas, lentils, onions, garlic, carrots, live yogurt, rhubarb, seeds and sprouted seeds, ginger, and green tea. Foods that will help in the balancing of hormones include: peas, bananas, red and purple berries, garlic, apples, fennel, parsley, cabbage, cauliflower, celery, nuts and seeds. And lastly here are a list of supplements that will help with endometriosis pains: magnesium, zinc, calcium, iron, B vitamins, Vitamin C, A, E, and Selenium.
I hope some of you found this to be helpful because I sure did. Have a wonderful week and I will update you again soon on my journey!!
Mwah,
Moeneak :)
Sunday, August 10, 2014
...My Generation...
Hello LOVIES!!!
Happy Sunday! I hope that you're all doing well! First, let me say thank you for all of the wonderful support and feedback on my last blog. I debated for months on if I should open up about my personal life considering how private I am. In the end, it all worked out really well for me and I appreciate all of the prayers and helpful tips on how I can manage my endometriosis. So again thank you loves. Some of you asked if I would keep you updated on my journey with my endometriosis and I absolutely will. :) Special S/O to Ms. Kenya Patterson for that sweet message of encouragment that you sent me. Meant alot to me so thank you beautiful.
Today's blog is going to be slightly different. I woke up and got on FB and saw that yet another persons life had been taken due to gun violence. I didn't know this young man but my heart hurt for his family. My heart hurts for our generation. Our mindsets are so jacked up and it just baffles me. I am honestly ashamed to be apart of a generation as dumb as ours. The fact that so many people get glory out of killing innocent people and living a life of stupidity but yet you want to scream free my dude or girl when they need to keep their ignorant self locked up behind bars. And in the same sentence yell that we as blacks are always looked at in a negative light. Really??? How did we get to this point? How did we get from being able to leave our doors unlocked and allow our children to play outside with free range and not worry about something happening too them to now being afraid to even allow them to walk outside because we fear that they will never return. We are living in a time that we can't go out to a club or party and enjoy ourselves because some idiot is out there waiting on an opportuinty to murder someone. We can't take our families on a nice bike ride or a walk on a trail because there are crazy pedophiles out there waiting on a chance to abduct us and rape us. We can't gather in a large crowd because if you accidently step on some nut balls Jordan's they are immediately ready to kill you. We wait in line all night for material items like clothes, shoes, and electronics and we stampead over the next one in front of us or to the side of us just so that we can floss our latest purchased items for people who don't even matter. We scream and protest for Lil Pookie to be set free when Lil Pookie shot or stabbed multiple people and lived a life that is more than fitting for him to be locked up behind bars. We portray to live a life of a gansta or a life lived in the ghetto when over half of us would never even survive if we were actually placed into a real ghetto living situation.
We have no idea what it means to live a life of struggle because all we know is quick money. We don't know how to work hard for anything that we have because we steal and kill to get it. We don't have a clue about the struggle that our parents and grandparents went through to provide a life of luxury for us. My parents are both retired from the military. They both have wrecked bodies from their jobs. They struggled and missed some major events in our lives due to deployments to provide a great living for us. We never went without a roof over our heads, we had the latest clothes, shoes, and electronics, we never missed a meal. They worked hard for what they have and it hurts me to the core when I see people that I've grown up with who lived the same life as myself portray an image of something less. How dare you discredit our parents who had bullets flying over their heads to provide a roof for you so you can put on this phony image in front of your friend because you want to be down!! How dare you slander their image that they've worked so hard to maintain all because you think it's cool to be a wanna be thug/gangster? How dare you fix your mouth to complain about the image that blacks are portrayed in when you're the reason that we are portrayed that way?
My generation needs to wake up!!! The image that you'll are seeing in your mind is crazy to me. When I think about the life that I want to live and the path that I want to walk down I think about the path that my parents took. They worked hard to get them to where they are. They showed me that fast and quick money is not always the best money. They put an image of positivity in my head and they gave me a desire to want more for myself. To want to be better then they were. In my eyes my parents have everything. What more would I be able to accomplish that they already haven't?? I want better and I want more for myself. For my family. Your five seconds of fame because you killed somebody doesn't do you any credit when you spend the rest of your life in jail behind bars. Is that the grand prize for you all?? Jail? You're so willing to cut your freedom and life short all because you want to appear to be down with people who could care less about you. People who you won't even see or hear from when you get locked up. I mean really guys, please wake up. Want more for yourself. Your actions affect a lot of people. We all suffer from your stupid decisions. Educate yourself and for all of our sake...grow up!!
I am well aware that things are only going to get worse. We are certainly living in the last days. My prayers go out to this world that we live in. My prayers are with the families that are grieving on a daily basis due to these selfish acts of violence. I pray that we wake up as a whole and get our lives in order. This is not what life is about. It just can't be.
I love you all,
Moeneak
We have no idea what it means to live a life of struggle because all we know is quick money. We don't know how to work hard for anything that we have because we steal and kill to get it. We don't have a clue about the struggle that our parents and grandparents went through to provide a life of luxury for us. My parents are both retired from the military. They both have wrecked bodies from their jobs. They struggled and missed some major events in our lives due to deployments to provide a great living for us. We never went without a roof over our heads, we had the latest clothes, shoes, and electronics, we never missed a meal. They worked hard for what they have and it hurts me to the core when I see people that I've grown up with who lived the same life as myself portray an image of something less. How dare you discredit our parents who had bullets flying over their heads to provide a roof for you so you can put on this phony image in front of your friend because you want to be down!! How dare you slander their image that they've worked so hard to maintain all because you think it's cool to be a wanna be thug/gangster? How dare you fix your mouth to complain about the image that blacks are portrayed in when you're the reason that we are portrayed that way?
My generation needs to wake up!!! The image that you'll are seeing in your mind is crazy to me. When I think about the life that I want to live and the path that I want to walk down I think about the path that my parents took. They worked hard to get them to where they are. They showed me that fast and quick money is not always the best money. They put an image of positivity in my head and they gave me a desire to want more for myself. To want to be better then they were. In my eyes my parents have everything. What more would I be able to accomplish that they already haven't?? I want better and I want more for myself. For my family. Your five seconds of fame because you killed somebody doesn't do you any credit when you spend the rest of your life in jail behind bars. Is that the grand prize for you all?? Jail? You're so willing to cut your freedom and life short all because you want to appear to be down with people who could care less about you. People who you won't even see or hear from when you get locked up. I mean really guys, please wake up. Want more for yourself. Your actions affect a lot of people. We all suffer from your stupid decisions. Educate yourself and for all of our sake...grow up!!
I am well aware that things are only going to get worse. We are certainly living in the last days. My prayers go out to this world that we live in. My prayers are with the families that are grieving on a daily basis due to these selfish acts of violence. I pray that we wake up as a whole and get our lives in order. This is not what life is about. It just can't be.
I love you all,
Moeneak
Wednesday, July 30, 2014
I am 1 in 10 woman who suffer from endometriosis........
Hello my Loves!!!!
This week has been a rough week to say the least. I'm not complaining just being transparent. We are all human, so everyday is not sunshine and rainbows. Some days are great...others not so great. This week I found myself having some really low days. More often than usual for me. I live by the statement that everyday might not be a good day but there is something good in everyday. So rather then complain about the things that aren't going right in my life I focus on the things are going great!
Yesterday while scrolling through instagram I came across Kenys's picture. Halfietruths some might know her by, or Dolewite from 101.1 the beats fiancé. In this picture she wore a shirt that had one simple word on it....grow. I instantly liked the picture because I love her. Her hair is what originally drew me to her but then I started to actually read up on her and follow her for more reasons. In this particular picture post she opened up about a miscarriage she and her fiancé experienced. I immediately started to cry...there goes that dern soft side of me. Lol. It broke my heart to know that someone so carrying and loving had to experience such a traumatic heartbreak. I continued to read more of her caption and she began to let others know that she is still growing. While it might not be how she hoped, she is nonetheless growing. She gave the statistics about how 1 in 4 women have a miscarriage and majority of them never muster up the strength to discuss what they've gone through. She let everyone know that she is not alone and neither are they. With that being said.......I am not pregnant and I did not miscarry. Lol.
BUT I am one of the 10% of the 176 million women who suffer from endometriosis. For those of you who don't know, endometriosis is a painful disease in which the tissue that normally lines the inside of the uterus known as the endometrium, grows outside of your uterus. It can cause pain, sometimes very severe and fertility problems develop. At age 13/14 ish I started to experience some of the worst stomach pain of my life. I mean it was unbearable. Sometimes so bad that I wouldn't even make it to school. I went to a few appointments had a few tests done and the results came back...I was one of the million woman who suffered from this condition. I was put on birth control to regulate some of the pain that I was having. And ugh yeah, that didn't help. At 17 I went in for a normal yearly checkout up and I found out that my endometriosis had gotten worse. I was now in Stage 4....severe...I was devastated!! I was informed that in this particular stage of endometriosis your chances of having a baby are at 10%. Definitely not something I wanted to hear, considering I had looked forward to always being a mother. My Dr. informed me at the wonderful age of 17 that if I wanted any chance of becoming a mother it was best for me to do so in the next 2-3 years because by age 21 I would need a full hysterectomy. My eyes filled with tears....I remember this day as if it were yesterday. No woman wants to ever hear those words. I prayed...and I cried...and I prayed...and I cried...and I finally picked myself up. Everyday a different battle. Everyday I woke up feeling less and less like a woman. I felt like I had been stripped of something that was so precious. Something that I dreamed of my whole life. And in an instance it was shattered....right in front of my very eyes. By 21 my pain was so bad that I underwent surgery. I received a hysteroscopy. I had some polyps and cysts removed and some blood drained. Hoping that this would fix the issue....to my surprise...it didn't. At 26 I went back to the doctor for the same unbearable pain...my worst nightmare was right in front of my eyes yet again. Hearing the dreadful words that I'll never be able to conceive a child and that I needed to have this hysterectomy done as soon as possible. I was yet again faced with this tragedy. I prayed...and I cried....I prayed...and I cried...
At the age of 27 I still suffer from this painful disease. I still battle with the pain, the bloating, the swelling, the feeling of not being complete as a woman. I cry countless days asking and praying too God to take this pain away. To heal me from this condition because only he can. I have really low days...more highs than lows. Thankfully. I have a wonderful support team. Family, friends, God parents...they make the journey easy. They encourage and the uplift me. I say all of that to say...I am just like Kenya. I am growing everyday. Not in a way that I ever saw myself growing in. But God has a plan. I won't lie and say that it is easy to understand it, I won't say that I am always the most confident in it; nevertheless, I trust God and I trust in his plan for my life. I thought that not having children would crush me. I could never stomach the thought of me not being a mother. But if his will calls for such, I know that I will not die. I will not fall to the ground and crumble. I will overcome and I will continue to enjoy the rest of the journey that he has for me. I am a lot more stronger than I actually give myself credit for.
So just like Kenya...#Iam1in10 and I will not grieve in silence so others can live in comfort. Kenya, you may never read this blog...but I just want to say thank you. Thank you for your openness, thank you for being so transparent. Thank you for motivating me and allowing me to realize that I am not alone either. Your courage is remarkable. Your generous spirit that you have to help is unbelievable. My prayers are with you always and I wish you nothing but the best that life has to offer. Thank you again.......GROWTH!!!
EVERYDAY MIGHT NOT BE A GOOD DAY BUT THERE IS SOMETHING GOOD IN EVERYDAY!!!!!
Love you always,
Moeneak
This week has been a rough week to say the least. I'm not complaining just being transparent. We are all human, so everyday is not sunshine and rainbows. Some days are great...others not so great. This week I found myself having some really low days. More often than usual for me. I live by the statement that everyday might not be a good day but there is something good in everyday. So rather then complain about the things that aren't going right in my life I focus on the things are going great!
Yesterday while scrolling through instagram I came across Kenys's picture. Halfietruths some might know her by, or Dolewite from 101.1 the beats fiancé. In this picture she wore a shirt that had one simple word on it....grow. I instantly liked the picture because I love her. Her hair is what originally drew me to her but then I started to actually read up on her and follow her for more reasons. In this particular picture post she opened up about a miscarriage she and her fiancé experienced. I immediately started to cry...there goes that dern soft side of me. Lol. It broke my heart to know that someone so carrying and loving had to experience such a traumatic heartbreak. I continued to read more of her caption and she began to let others know that she is still growing. While it might not be how she hoped, she is nonetheless growing. She gave the statistics about how 1 in 4 women have a miscarriage and majority of them never muster up the strength to discuss what they've gone through. She let everyone know that she is not alone and neither are they. With that being said.......I am not pregnant and I did not miscarry. Lol.
BUT I am one of the 10% of the 176 million women who suffer from endometriosis. For those of you who don't know, endometriosis is a painful disease in which the tissue that normally lines the inside of the uterus known as the endometrium, grows outside of your uterus. It can cause pain, sometimes very severe and fertility problems develop. At age 13/14 ish I started to experience some of the worst stomach pain of my life. I mean it was unbearable. Sometimes so bad that I wouldn't even make it to school. I went to a few appointments had a few tests done and the results came back...I was one of the million woman who suffered from this condition. I was put on birth control to regulate some of the pain that I was having. And ugh yeah, that didn't help. At 17 I went in for a normal yearly checkout up and I found out that my endometriosis had gotten worse. I was now in Stage 4....severe...I was devastated!! I was informed that in this particular stage of endometriosis your chances of having a baby are at 10%. Definitely not something I wanted to hear, considering I had looked forward to always being a mother. My Dr. informed me at the wonderful age of 17 that if I wanted any chance of becoming a mother it was best for me to do so in the next 2-3 years because by age 21 I would need a full hysterectomy. My eyes filled with tears....I remember this day as if it were yesterday. No woman wants to ever hear those words. I prayed...and I cried...and I prayed...and I cried...and I finally picked myself up. Everyday a different battle. Everyday I woke up feeling less and less like a woman. I felt like I had been stripped of something that was so precious. Something that I dreamed of my whole life. And in an instance it was shattered....right in front of my very eyes. By 21 my pain was so bad that I underwent surgery. I received a hysteroscopy. I had some polyps and cysts removed and some blood drained. Hoping that this would fix the issue....to my surprise...it didn't. At 26 I went back to the doctor for the same unbearable pain...my worst nightmare was right in front of my eyes yet again. Hearing the dreadful words that I'll never be able to conceive a child and that I needed to have this hysterectomy done as soon as possible. I was yet again faced with this tragedy. I prayed...and I cried....I prayed...and I cried...
At the age of 27 I still suffer from this painful disease. I still battle with the pain, the bloating, the swelling, the feeling of not being complete as a woman. I cry countless days asking and praying too God to take this pain away. To heal me from this condition because only he can. I have really low days...more highs than lows. Thankfully. I have a wonderful support team. Family, friends, God parents...they make the journey easy. They encourage and the uplift me. I say all of that to say...I am just like Kenya. I am growing everyday. Not in a way that I ever saw myself growing in. But God has a plan. I won't lie and say that it is easy to understand it, I won't say that I am always the most confident in it; nevertheless, I trust God and I trust in his plan for my life. I thought that not having children would crush me. I could never stomach the thought of me not being a mother. But if his will calls for such, I know that I will not die. I will not fall to the ground and crumble. I will overcome and I will continue to enjoy the rest of the journey that he has for me. I am a lot more stronger than I actually give myself credit for.
So just like Kenya...#Iam1in10 and I will not grieve in silence so others can live in comfort. Kenya, you may never read this blog...but I just want to say thank you. Thank you for your openness, thank you for being so transparent. Thank you for motivating me and allowing me to realize that I am not alone either. Your courage is remarkable. Your generous spirit that you have to help is unbelievable. My prayers are with you always and I wish you nothing but the best that life has to offer. Thank you again.......GROWTH!!!
EVERYDAY MIGHT NOT BE A GOOD DAY BUT THERE IS SOMETHING GOOD IN EVERYDAY!!!!!
Love you always,
Moeneak
Tuesday, July 22, 2014
Societies outlook on beauty.......
Happy Tuesday Lovies!!!!
Today's blog really doesn't have any long story about why I picked this topic. It's just a topic that I wanted to discuss because I felt like the definition for what others; as well as, what we as women place on what makes us a woman can sometimes be a little unattainable. Now if you're born a woman obviously you're a woman. I am referring more so to how we look, how we dress, how we speak, how we act, and how we carry ourselves etc.
I know as for me, I very rarely leave my house (with the exception of maybe going to workout or to the mailbox) without some kind of makeup, hair done, and some form of a coordinated outfit. I almost feel a little unlike myself if I don't because I enjoy playing in makeup and enhancing my natural beauty especially given the fact that I work in a warehouse. It's almost ridiculous to show up to work with a full face of makeup on and my most stylish outfit. So when I am off the clock or just enjoying my free time I tend too like to look nice and spiffy. For those of you who actually know me outside of my blogs you know that I am a simple girl. I wear mostly black everyday, jeans, flats, and I always go for a natural makeup look. I am never really over the top with anything that I do. I wear my hair the same way, my outfits are all very similar, my fashion and style is very casual comfortable. In the past I have found myself having to justify my reasoning for why I choose to carry myself as such. I have heard that I am fake because I constantly tell other women to embrace their natural hair and beauty but yet I wear makeup and get my nails done. My answer is very simple to this statement. I am natural all day everyday. I am not afraid of what I look like without makeup on, nor am I scared to embrace it. Just because I choose to wear makeup doesn't make me any less of a natural person. I am natural all of the time, and this is just one subsection of my naturalness. Neither state is weird or unusual for me. I am just as comfortable with myself with a face full of makeup, as I am with myself without any makeup on at all. The fact that people have a hard time understanding this is completely beyond what I can grasp.
As some of you may know I lost a lot of weight in the past years and I am yet and still shedding the pounds. Getting in shape and becoming more healthy has helped me to become more in touch with myself. I am more conscious of what others see and relate beauty towards. I am more aware of how society views woman. I am aware of the different body types that we as woman are criticized for having. I am aware that I constantly have to keep the appearance of being girlie when sometimes I just want to throw on some sweats and a hoodie and just relax. This need that we need to justify ourselves one to another and to constantly criticize our own bodies while making commitments and promises to ourselves obsessing over small changes has become so ingrained in our culture and in our everyday lives that it can be hard to just let go and be yourself. Every female is striving to be this perfect girl who is thin with perfect skin, hair, and teeth and all of these other traits that we THINK define beauty but when you're a girl who loves to eat pizza, not wear makeup, and are not as skinny as the girls on the cover of magazines what then do we think of ourselves??
We idiolize these women on TV not knowing that they face the same day to day struggles that we all face. They wake up battling the appearance that they see in the mirror and what they want to portray versus the appearance that society has given them and placed upon them. Everywhere we turn in society we're tearing each other down over appearance. We cannot escape being consumed by what we look like and how we go about accomplishing it. I am so sick of the judgement that we place on ourselves and the judgment that we allow others to place on us. Why can't we get to a place where we just embrace who we are and focus more on the inner appearance? Not at the cost of our sanity and self love. Not at the cost of our dignity. We as woman are so much more than what meets the eye.
If you enjoy wearing makeup and getting dolled up everyday, that's great. As long as you're happy with the woman that you see in the mirror everyday that is all that counts. Lets focus more on encouraging and lifting each other up. Lets stop tearing each other down over small and trivial things that really don't make us any less of a woman than the next. Your girlie appearance doesn't make you any more or less of a woman than someone who is more casually dressed. We are all fighting the same battle together, just be the best you that you can be and the rest will work itself out.
Beauty is only a small portion of who you are. Don't allow something so small and trivial to make or break you as a woman. Embrace the skin that you're in, stand tall and proud and love yourself.
A woman whose smile is open and whose expression is glad has a kind of beauty no matter what she wears!!
I love you,
Moeneak
Today's blog really doesn't have any long story about why I picked this topic. It's just a topic that I wanted to discuss because I felt like the definition for what others; as well as, what we as women place on what makes us a woman can sometimes be a little unattainable. Now if you're born a woman obviously you're a woman. I am referring more so to how we look, how we dress, how we speak, how we act, and how we carry ourselves etc.
I know as for me, I very rarely leave my house (with the exception of maybe going to workout or to the mailbox) without some kind of makeup, hair done, and some form of a coordinated outfit. I almost feel a little unlike myself if I don't because I enjoy playing in makeup and enhancing my natural beauty especially given the fact that I work in a warehouse. It's almost ridiculous to show up to work with a full face of makeup on and my most stylish outfit. So when I am off the clock or just enjoying my free time I tend too like to look nice and spiffy. For those of you who actually know me outside of my blogs you know that I am a simple girl. I wear mostly black everyday, jeans, flats, and I always go for a natural makeup look. I am never really over the top with anything that I do. I wear my hair the same way, my outfits are all very similar, my fashion and style is very casual comfortable. In the past I have found myself having to justify my reasoning for why I choose to carry myself as such. I have heard that I am fake because I constantly tell other women to embrace their natural hair and beauty but yet I wear makeup and get my nails done. My answer is very simple to this statement. I am natural all day everyday. I am not afraid of what I look like without makeup on, nor am I scared to embrace it. Just because I choose to wear makeup doesn't make me any less of a natural person. I am natural all of the time, and this is just one subsection of my naturalness. Neither state is weird or unusual for me. I am just as comfortable with myself with a face full of makeup, as I am with myself without any makeup on at all. The fact that people have a hard time understanding this is completely beyond what I can grasp.
As some of you may know I lost a lot of weight in the past years and I am yet and still shedding the pounds. Getting in shape and becoming more healthy has helped me to become more in touch with myself. I am more conscious of what others see and relate beauty towards. I am more aware of how society views woman. I am aware of the different body types that we as woman are criticized for having. I am aware that I constantly have to keep the appearance of being girlie when sometimes I just want to throw on some sweats and a hoodie and just relax. This need that we need to justify ourselves one to another and to constantly criticize our own bodies while making commitments and promises to ourselves obsessing over small changes has become so ingrained in our culture and in our everyday lives that it can be hard to just let go and be yourself. Every female is striving to be this perfect girl who is thin with perfect skin, hair, and teeth and all of these other traits that we THINK define beauty but when you're a girl who loves to eat pizza, not wear makeup, and are not as skinny as the girls on the cover of magazines what then do we think of ourselves??
We idiolize these women on TV not knowing that they face the same day to day struggles that we all face. They wake up battling the appearance that they see in the mirror and what they want to portray versus the appearance that society has given them and placed upon them. Everywhere we turn in society we're tearing each other down over appearance. We cannot escape being consumed by what we look like and how we go about accomplishing it. I am so sick of the judgement that we place on ourselves and the judgment that we allow others to place on us. Why can't we get to a place where we just embrace who we are and focus more on the inner appearance? Not at the cost of our sanity and self love. Not at the cost of our dignity. We as woman are so much more than what meets the eye.
If you enjoy wearing makeup and getting dolled up everyday, that's great. As long as you're happy with the woman that you see in the mirror everyday that is all that counts. Lets focus more on encouraging and lifting each other up. Lets stop tearing each other down over small and trivial things that really don't make us any less of a woman than the next. Your girlie appearance doesn't make you any more or less of a woman than someone who is more casually dressed. We are all fighting the same battle together, just be the best you that you can be and the rest will work itself out.
Beauty is only a small portion of who you are. Don't allow something so small and trivial to make or break you as a woman. Embrace the skin that you're in, stand tall and proud and love yourself.
A woman whose smile is open and whose expression is glad has a kind of beauty no matter what she wears!!
I love you,
Moeneak
Monday, July 14, 2014
Love yourself first or nobody else will!
Hello LOVIES!
It's the start of a brand new week. Thank you Jesus for allowing me the opportunity to see it! Everyone is certainly not granted this chance! I do hope and pray that you'll have a wonderful week and that you take the time out to thank God for all of the many blessings that you've received thus far.
Self acceptance is such an important trait for everyone to possess. You must first love and respect yourself in order for others to love and respect you. Accept who you are flaws and all. What someone dislikes about you someone else might love. I can't get all deep into the situations that transpired because this blog would be mad long and nobody has time for all that. Lol. Be who you are and be free in it. Own it like there's no tomorrow.
This life already has a way of making us feel very lonely at times and like we are not good enough. No need for you to add that extra pressure on yourself. Accept yourself for who God created you to be. He loved you from the beginning and it's time that we start loving ourselves the same way. If you are a shy person, own your shyness. If you don't like to wear makeup, own that you don't like to wear makeup. If you are goofy and quirky, own your goofiness and quirks. Whoever you are just be that. It's too many duplicates in the world that we live in today. Just be you and do you boo!!!
Sooo with that being said......
I am Moeneak. I am sometimes loud and obnoxious. I am sometimes chill and mellow. Sometimes I cry a lot, other times I never shed a tear. I laugh at almost any and everything. I enjoy the simple things that life has to offer. Sometimes I enjoy being dolled up but most days I enjoy being in my jeans, tshirt, and flats. I have blemishes on my skin, my feelings get hurt rather easily. I love hard and I love deep. I can sometimes be very unattached. I get over things quickly and I don't hold grudges. I often times don't do my hair. I don't always make my bed. I sing remotely loud in the shower and in the car (not all that great either) I have absolutely no rhythm (let my friends tell it. I think I've gotten better lol) I sit at home on the sofa with the TV on and the sound on mute. I dance around my home with the broom, mop, or vacuum cleaner pretending to be on some singing or dancing show. I am very much a homebody. I'd rather be home chilling in my jammies any day. I rewatch movies over and over again and laugh at them as if it's my first time seeing it (Sister Act 2, The Little Rascals just to name a few) I am OBSESSED with Tupac. Seriously! I sometimes have my days when I am really in a funk and don't want to be bothered. I am human. I am not perfect nor will I ever be. I am simply me. Moeneak Love!!!!
Have a wonderful week loves!!!!
Sunday, July 6, 2014
You're who you're.....so own it!
Lately I've found myself being more hard on Moeneak then I usually am. I've found myself questioning my position, questioning my talents, my strengths, my career path, my education path, and pretty much everything concerning me. When I tell y'all that this vision board has opened up my mind to endless possibilities, I mean wow.
Who would have thought that a simple board with cut outs about what direction I see and want my life to go in would lead to so much more. When I sit down and reflect on where I've come from and where I am today, I can say that it was nobody but God. Now to some people on the outside looking in, I have it made. This week I've about heard it all...from how much money I make, to how I look and carry myself, to what more could I possible want. By know means do I have it at all together, I am a work in progress just like everyone else. God has certainly been good to me. In the natural;as well as, in the spiritual aspect.
I should be so much farther in life then where I am. I've found myself comparing my life and accomplishments to others around me. But I asked myself this question, is God really concerned with my life in comparison to the ones around me? I always thought he viewed me as an individual. And in fact, he does. I might not be where you're in life but I am moving towards something better. I am striving to live a life that's more pleasing. I am moving towards a life that God has predestined and planned out for me.
The devil has a way of making us feel like we are never good enough. Like we are never moving in the right direction that God has called us to. Sometimes it makes us feel worthless. Like we are never good enough. But those are just lies. We're worthy and we're over comers. Don't let the deceitfulness from the devil or anyone else make you feel like you're not good enough. Use the negative thoughts and feelings as a positive. Let's face it, we all have our low moments. It's in those moments when we feel Gods presence the most. That's when he is the closest to us. Grab hold of him and encourage yourself!
You're enough. You're an overcomer. You're deserving. Anything you want to do and accomplish, you can! Use the gifts that you've been blessed with. No matter how far behind we may think we're, we're still making progress. Slow progress is better then no progress at all. There is always tomorrow. Always another chance to start over and get it right. With God on your side he's more than the whole world against you.
I love you all,
Moeneak
Saturday, July 5, 2014
Dream BIG
Hello LOVIES!!
Today I created a vision board. Cheesy to some but mind triggering for me. Sometimes you just need to write your vision out and make it plan. Putting it onto paper and remind yourself that YOU'RE WORTHY AND DESERVING. Sometimes it's just the simple things like setting some goals and accomplishing them. And most importantly make you happy!!! Dream big for yourself. No one else will believe in you like you can believe in yourself. You're your biggest supporter!!!
I love you!!
It's been a while since I've chatted with you all. SORRY. Life kind of just got in the way. You know the whole shabang with adult life....work, bills, family, more work blah blah blah blah. Lol.
Today's blog won't be long, just a quick recap on what's been happening. I hope you all enjoyed your 4th of July weekend. I had a blast. BBQ and fireworks in downtown Nashville was amazing.
Moeneak 😘😘
Sunday, June 15, 2014
Happy Fathers Day
Just want to say Happy Fathers Day to all the amazing fathers out there. You guys don't always receive as much credit as you're owed but we thank you for everything that you do for us!!! Enjoy your day fellas.
Today's blog is strictly a dedication to my DADDY!!!
Nearly 14 years ago you entered into my life. I instantly felt a strong connection to you. You stepped in when I was a 13 year old teenager who thought she knew everything. Some of my fondest memories are spent with you.
You held me close and danced with me at my 8th grade dance, you showed up to nearly all of my soccer and basketball games cheering me on loud in the stands. You helped me with class projects, and whenever anything on me was hurting you always told me to put some alcohol on it. (cause alcohol totally fixes everything) lol. You've allowed me to cry on your shoulders when ex boyfriends broke my heart. You dried my tears and told me they weren't good enough for me anyways. You've taken me to fairs, windows down, music blasting, rapping and singing songs. You've placed endless smiles on my face.
I've witnessed your sacrifices as a man who would do anything in the world to provide for his family. I've seen you love my mother unconditionally!! You've accepted children who weren't biologically yours. You've prayed for me, encouraged me, given me your time, laughed with me, allowed me to make my own mistakes but never turned your back on me when I failed. You're my role model for what I want in my future husband. You're my hero, my first real love, the most important man in my life!!!!
So today I just want say that I love you. Thank you for the countless sacrifices that you made for our family, thank you for being strong even when you needed to be weak, thank you for being a provider, my friend, thank you for loving my mother and being everything that she needs you to be, thank you for sticking it out when times were hard, thank you for your faithfulness, thank most importantly for being a great father!!! I could not imagine life without and since God brought you to me it's been nothing short of amazing!!!
Happy Fathers Day to the greatest man that I know.....my hero forever and always....my DADDY!!!
Thursday, June 12, 2014
Underserving.....but so grateful!!!!!
Hey LOVIES!!!!
Wow......where do I even began to start. 2014 has been a year of ups and downs....and I put a strong emphasis on the ups and downs. I've experienced losing really close family members due to deaths, I've lost some friends, battled health issues, my family members have battled health issues, lost my job, regained my job, battled depression, my weight has fluctuated, I've questioned God and shed a many of tears. More this year than any previous years. I've failed God on so many different occasions. I've lost hope and come extremely close to throwing in the towel. I've threw several pity parties and blamed my short comings and failures on God. I haven't always stuck it out this year and gone through how I know I am supposed too. I've murmured and complained.....but God yet and still saw fit to bring me right on through.
The odds have most certainly been stacked against me and the devil has been mighty busy. Throughout all of my obstacles that have entered into my life in 2014, my God has always been my comforter. He has been by my side leading and guiding me the entire way. I have talked to God more this year than I ever have. My relationship with him has grown and my troubles and tribulations had everything to do with that. When times got hard I had no other option but to call on him and allow him to be comforter. For years I searched for mans affection, whether it be from friends or family members. This year I learned that God was my only solution. When times were good and when times were bad. I called on my God! I praised God in the midst of my struggles. I thank God for my troubles this year. They have helped to make me into a much stronger person. My faith in God has increased and my relationship with him has never been better!
Although, this year has brought about many hard aches this year has blessed me tremendously. In the spirit aspect; as well as, the natural aspect. I have received 2 promotions, a raise, college tuition paid in full for up to 8 years, I've met my daddies side of the family, I've become active in ministry, I've traveled, I've crossed things off my "bucket list" I've grew extremely close to my family, and most importantly I've grown up!! I am blessed!! No other way to put it. God has been more than good to me in 2014.
Even when your back is against the wall, keep pushing. Dive into God like you've never done before and watch him dive into you. Give up yourself and see how God will make you more like him. I am no where near perfect. I mess up daily, but I know that there is a higher calling. I know that I need God now more than ever. If God never does another thing for me...I can still lift my hands and thank him for all that he has done for me this far!!
Nothing is as bad as it seems. There is always someone who has it worse. So be grateful for the blessings that you've been blessed with. Be thankful for your trials and tribulations. Praise him in the midst of your ups and downs. I owe God my everything!! I'm undeserving but I'm grateful!!! Be encouraged and know that trouble doesn't last always. Things are turning around for your good because God will perfect that concerning his people.
I love you all dearly! Have a wonderful Thursday!!!!
Moeneak
Tuesday, June 10, 2014
Is the glass really half empty or is the glass really half full????
Happy Tuesday LOVIES!!!
Is the glass half empty or half full??? A question that demonstrates a situation that can be seen differently depending upon ones view and that there may be an opportunity in the situation as well as trouble.
Optimism- (half full) positive thinking. Everything is as it should be. One expects the best outcome possible from a situation.
Pessimist- (half empty) undesirable outcomes or believes that evil or hardships in life outweigh the good or luxuries. Expects the worst outcome possible.
Adversity- serious or continued difficulty or misfortune
******DISCLAMER****** These are not my personal definitions. Just giving the definition from the dictionary.
Interesting conversations are always taking place for me because of the group of people that I associate with. Some of which can be very thought provoking, others that just bring about great laughs. Today's conversation was one that hit home for me. My kindness has been taken for weakness on countless occasions. Most times I knew about but opted to not do anything about. I'd like to think of myself as a non-confrontational kind of gal. If I don't have to address things, I won't. If things are not putting me in harms danger, I can usually brush them off and keep moving. Although, I have yet to figure out if this is a good or bad thing. Lol.
Anywho, the questions that a friend of mine asked me were Do you see the glass half empty or half full and how do you view adversity? At the time I gave some quick answer because truthfully, I really didn't see the purpose of this question. I placed into my mind that this would be one of those great laugh conversations, but it turned out to be the complete opposite. I never gave this question much thought. Over the years I've tried to view my life in a positive light. Even with the bad that comes with it. I am a firm believer that everyone and everything that enters into your life has a purpose. Good or bad. There is a purpose. The people who meant me harm...I learned from. The people who pulled and sucked the life out of me...I learned from. The people who betrayed and back stabbed me...I learned from. The people who encourage and support me...I learn from. The depressing moments of my life...I learned from. Every situation that I have been put in or brought upon myself has been a learning experience. Did times get hard and rough?? Absolutely! Were there times when I wanted to retaliate or back away?? Of course, but what would that have helped me overcome? What's life without a few bumps and bruises along the way?? I know that everyone in my life doesn't mean me all good, I'm not that nieve. But everyone/every obstacle in my life is helping me reach my destiny. Something is being deposited into me or pulled from me in some form. It is helping to shape me into the person that I am supposed to be. How would I know what areas in my life I need help on if I'm never tested in those areas??
Once I began to change my thinking, I began to see things more clearly. I'm not saying to allow foolishness to stay in your life. If someone means you harm, then you have the right to dismiss that from your presence. If someone always brings negativity with them, you have the right to remove yourself from that circle. If situations occur that aren't going to push you forward, you have the right to do something about it. Life will bring you many things, it's up too you to decide which ones are worth keeping or tossing out. Don't look at every adversity as a curse, but dig deep and find out the lesson that can be learned from it. Try to see the good in every situation that you're faced with. Everything happens for a reason. So embrace the adversity that you will encounter. It'll build you up and make you stronger. You'll learn to approach things in a totally different light. It'll help you to grow. It'll build your character. All adversities are blessings given to us to learn from.
Needless to say, my answer at the end of the conversation was I'm more of a glass is half full kind of girl. I find some good in everything, will at least I try too. So my question to you...how do you view the adversities that you're faced with? Is it with the glass is half empty mindset or the glass is half full mindset?
Have a wonderful day Loves!!!
Moeneak
Monday, June 9, 2014
Thank you loves!!
Happy Monday Lovies,
I had a moment of truth today, which I tend to have a few times a day. In my daily talks with God I was asking him if blogging was really where I needed to be devoting my spare time. Yes, I love helping others, and I love encouraging others anyway that I can, but I wasn't sure if this was the platform in which I should take. As I stated in yesterdays blog, we all have our own set destination and/or purpose and I want to make sure that I am staying in my own lane on my own path.
It wasn't until today that I realized that I am exactly in the position that I am supposed to be in. I am reaching for higher and pushing myself to achieve every goal that I set out to accomplish. I was researching some Psychology firms because that is the field of study that I am in and while on Google I saw my face pop up under the search field. My face, along with my blog. My blog had been spread on Google. For some, this might not be a big deal but for me this is HUGE. I never in a million years would have thought that when I went to search for something on Google that my little old self would pop up. When I first made up in my mind that I wanted to start a blog it was only because I wanted to express my love for writing. I wanted to encourage others with a few words that might be able to help them make it through a tough time. I wanted to do what I loved most.....helping others. Along my journey of highs and lows, I have encountered countless people who have helped push me to the next level. I would never be able to repay them for the time and sacrifice that they spent on me but I can give back my time and sacrifice to someone else. I can be that encourager that so many people have been to me.
I don't know where this journey of my life will take me but I am so excited for the ride. So thank you loves. Thank you for the support, thank you for the love, thank you for the encouragement, thank you for sharing my blogs, and thank you for allowing me to express myself freely and do what I love!! My heart is filled with so much gratitude!!!
Many people might not understand your journey, but as long as you're lining up according to the plan and will that God has for your life....nothing else matters! Have an ear to hear and an open mind. Trust and believe in the gifts that God has blessed you with. Step out on faith......He brought you this far and he won't leave you!! If you're going to live, leave a legacy. Make a mark on the world that can't be erased. -Maya Angelo
MWAH!!!!!
Moeneak
I had a moment of truth today, which I tend to have a few times a day. In my daily talks with God I was asking him if blogging was really where I needed to be devoting my spare time. Yes, I love helping others, and I love encouraging others anyway that I can, but I wasn't sure if this was the platform in which I should take. As I stated in yesterdays blog, we all have our own set destination and/or purpose and I want to make sure that I am staying in my own lane on my own path.
It wasn't until today that I realized that I am exactly in the position that I am supposed to be in. I am reaching for higher and pushing myself to achieve every goal that I set out to accomplish. I was researching some Psychology firms because that is the field of study that I am in and while on Google I saw my face pop up under the search field. My face, along with my blog. My blog had been spread on Google. For some, this might not be a big deal but for me this is HUGE. I never in a million years would have thought that when I went to search for something on Google that my little old self would pop up. When I first made up in my mind that I wanted to start a blog it was only because I wanted to express my love for writing. I wanted to encourage others with a few words that might be able to help them make it through a tough time. I wanted to do what I loved most.....helping others. Along my journey of highs and lows, I have encountered countless people who have helped push me to the next level. I would never be able to repay them for the time and sacrifice that they spent on me but I can give back my time and sacrifice to someone else. I can be that encourager that so many people have been to me.
I don't know where this journey of my life will take me but I am so excited for the ride. So thank you loves. Thank you for the support, thank you for the love, thank you for the encouragement, thank you for sharing my blogs, and thank you for allowing me to express myself freely and do what I love!! My heart is filled with so much gratitude!!!
Many people might not understand your journey, but as long as you're lining up according to the plan and will that God has for your life....nothing else matters! Have an ear to hear and an open mind. Trust and believe in the gifts that God has blessed you with. Step out on faith......He brought you this far and he won't leave you!! If you're going to live, leave a legacy. Make a mark on the world that can't be erased. -Maya Angelo
MWAH!!!!!
Moeneak
Sunday, June 8, 2014
There's nothing like family!!!
Hello Loves!!!
I hope that you all are having a fantastic Sunday!!! I know I sure am. Started this Sunday morning off in church. A right now word that brought about so much confirmation! A Devine destiny that I can only receive through the word of God. There's a miracle that is simply designed for me and only me. (Apostle Garfield Curlin) Don't get so caught up on what is happening to the people around you. Your journey is your set journey. You will get there on your own path. Amazing things happen when you get real with yourself and start doing what you love, and what makes you happy. Your life literally slows down. You stop wishing for the weekend. You stop looking for special events. You begin to live in each moment and you start feeling like a human being. You just ride the wave that is life, with this feeling of contentment and joy. You move fluidly, steadily, calm and grateful. A veil is lifted, and a whole new perspective is born!
Aren't you tired of just existing and not living??? It's never too late to make a change! Start today! Remove the veil and start living a life that is full of freedom. You're worthy of everything that God has for you!!!
I love you all and have a wonderful Sunday!!! I will be spending the remainder of this day with my crazy, but amazing family lol. There's nothing like the love and time spent with your family. Great food, great laughs, and great bonding!!!
Happy Sunday Loves!!
Moeneak 😘😘
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